I’m trying so hard.  It feels like I spend all my energy trying to recognize that and tell myself exactly what you are saying.  I’m so exhausted anymore.  I really think that i should of never contacted her again.(yes, i should of listened to everyone)  Maybe then i would be better by now.  I tried telling my self out loud today that i am strong and confident, that I have a good life, that i love myself and that i don’t need her.  I have done that a few times today.  I know i sound like a broken record.  but damn, this is so difficult.  I really am grateful for how happy i was and having that feeling, but now i really wish i would of never met her.  I have never been like this in my entire life.  I wouldn’t ever wish this on anybody.