Hello,

Now I have agreed to meet him tomorrow all of a sudden I am teary and sad, feeling hopeless and lost again. It has thrown up all my issues and my worst feelings about myself.

I was happy at first: I was getting what I wanted. The anxiety and bad feelings crept in later. I was trying to think of what I wanted to say and felt hopeless and lost, like nothing I could say would make him change his mind and want to be with me instead of this other woman. (It dragged up all those times I felt I had been rejected in favour of another, leaving me wondering what magical trick these woman possessed that made these men want to be with them instead of me.)

Oh dear. 🙁

-Feathering