Dear  Isra:

You described the  care  package you prepared so thoughtfully. I wish I  could  prepare a care  package for you, to  take with you because you may not  post here again, so you indicated in your recent post.

In that care package I would put a self-doubt calming perfume. Every time you do something good for  another and then doubt  yourself, you can open that perfume bottle and let the aroma  calm your brain and bring a smile  to your face.

That perfume will calm  that  “perpetual battle” with yourself, “over what feels  like the right thing for (you) to do”, and bring you clarity and the calm that  comes  with clarity.

It would be a very  small care package.

anita