Welcome to the forum Joanna.

Unfortunately I do not have any answers for you however I can relate closely to the story you have shared. I have had a crazy past few months, back in June / July I lost everything, my whole life as I knew it. My job, my relationship, and a person very very dear to me.. I have been struggling ever since and have found it extremely hard to deal with the trauma left behind.

I would like to follow your thread closely as I feel you may get some very good responses here. The tiny Buddha community is very insightful and supportive!

I hope you get all of the answers that you need 🙂