Kkasxo,

Whats the worst that could happen if you got back together with your ex? Would you be able to endure it? I went back to my ex before and while it turned out that it didn’t work out the second time, I know I still had to do it at the time, I had to give it everything.

My therapist joked the other day when I complained that I’m not feeling better as time goes on that if I hadn’t returned to my ex a couple of years ago, I’d be totally fine by now! He was being funny and it did make me laugh, but he agreed I needed to absolutely do it at the time.

I understand how you feel- look at me, it hasn’t worked out TWICE with my ex and I still want to reconcile with him!

Don’t worry about the counselling, it might be less scary to say those things out loud than let them rattle around inside your head, turning into all sorts. Tell your counsellor what you’re concerned about and if they can offer any tools for you to cope in between sessions.

I’m awake, trying to get to sleep, but it’s hard. Hopefully I’ll get some sleep soon. I hope you sleep too.