Don’t get me wrong; I am absolutely terrified. And, in fact, I feel like I am quite far from being able to embrace uncertainty.
Hi Emelie
You made me smile as I very much relate. You might not realize it yet but you are leaping which was why your story reminded me of that book.
It took me 4 years to come up with a plan so that I felt ready to leave the military. Yet when I finally let go of the “trapeze bar’ it was a moment, literately a second. A terrifying moment but once I let go I was all in and focused as I went back to school not knowing how it was going to work out just that I needed to do it.
When I look I sometimes wonder did it really take 4 years or was it just that moment of letting go. I don’t know. I have learned that change happens slowly then all at once. That we don’t tend to notice the small changes we make along the way before we leap. Its weird but it wasn’t the leap that turned out to be scary it was all those small changes I didn’t fully notice that was behind most of my anxiety and fear .
Anyway I hope you keep documenting your process as you go about your transition. Will make for a good story one day.
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