Kkasxo,

Just seen your post before I went to sign out. I don’t know if I can help but before I go I will leave you with a few pointers that may make your night easier.

• Possibly write a list of 5 things or even three, that you have accomplished in the last year.
• Please try to believe that you are strong, just tell yourself that you are, because, well, you are. You have gone through a lot and are still standing, even after crying you are thinking of ways to help yourself. Asking for medication doesn’t mean you aren’t strong, if anything it makes you strong because you are taking the step to acknowledge that you need help, which a lot of people will not do.
• Try and watch or read something funny, comedy does wonders for the soul.
• If you really can’t sleep is there anyone you can call? If not friends you could try a helpline just to talk to someone for five minutes (I’ve done this myself at times and it has helped).
• sending hugs!!

– V