Hi Anita,

I think you are right, no contact at all is the best idea. Maybe it won’t benefit her and even though I wouldn’t have been expecting a response, I can’t say for sure that it wouldn’t affect me. I am also now thinking that I won’t attend works christmas meal, knowing that she will be there. I do feel I have let go – I feel sad, but not in a longing for her way – but there will be alcohol involved and that may incite anger or resentment at the lack of honest closure she offered. Particularly if she has found someone else so quickly and is out with him.

I know I should be getting out but I feel now that night is not worth the risk. I would like to hold my head high knowing that I have been genuine but my anger, fear and distrust of people and the world at large is still there. Even though I have made progress I am proud of, the “universal compassion” talked about in the books I am reading is a long way off.

Thank you for listening