Kkasxo,

Im beyond grateful for the love and support my family and friends have shown me over this past week. As weeks go, this was one of the better ones in terms of activities and distractions. Despite this, I have still felt incredibly sad all week. It’s hard to shake.

I have honestly been trying to instill in myself a sense that it’s over. I won’t see or hear from him again and should continue my life accordingly but it’s easier said than done.

I have my Xmas party tonight and all anxious about it, I don’t know why. I guess I haven’t been doing any socialising lately so it’s anothe hurdle and I hope anxiety doesn’t get the better of me. I’m actually getting upset even typing now, thinking about nights out without him. I used to look forward to going out with him so much.

Ok, need to implement CBT and stop thinking about it, he’s gone. I need to move on and try not to think about him and try to enjoy myself .

Did you manage to get to sleep last night? I can understand why you’re feeling a bit less than cheery. It IS complicated and it’s not exactly sailing in a calm sea just yet. Ye are still working on things, you are working on things yourself. It’s the time of year when you want to be all happy and cosy with your partner but most of your circle doesn’t even know ye are back together so it’s just tricky.

But hopefully all the initial awkwardness and unsettled feelings will abate in the near future and you’ll be back on track. What are your plans today and tomorrow?