Dear noname:

You wrote six days ago that you were thinking of “journaling daily at  least a few short sentences about evidence of my worth”, and yesterday, first paragraph: “the  belief that I’m worthless is not supported with evidence”. Notice how you know, and you don’t know that evidence is not the issue.

For a child, the evidence of his worth is what he sees in his parents’ faces. Our eyes then and now are located in such a way that we  don’t see our own faces unless we look at a mirror. The child’s mirror is his  parent’s face. Problem is most children are looking  at very distorted  mirrors.

I like your “compassion instead of consumption” principle, it even sounds right to say it out loud. I can see it as a title of a chapter  in a book you might put together one day. You wrote: “to feel  important to others & the planet”. I used  to believe that it  will take the whole world acknowledging my  worth so that I could  feel worthy. What  I learned is  that it only takes ONE PERSON to see my  worth, and  for me to  see my reflection in that  one  face. Problem is, a child does not question the face of his parent. If that face shows the child is worthy, the  child will automatically and unquestionably believe it. But when a  child sees unworthiness in the face  of his parent for years, as an adult coming across faces who  do show his worth, the adult child has the image of the parent’s face transposed over those faces, the same old, same old distorted mirror.

It takes seeing, really seeing that one face of one person who believes you are worthy.

Regarding non-duality and connectedness, it makes sense to me in context of one’s self worth this way: noname’s worth is not about what he does, disconnected from the world, proving to the world, showing to the world, convincing the world that he  is  worthy. His worth is something he was born with and will  die with. It is natural, a reality, something real and  undeniable. It was never a question except in the minds  of those disconnected.

anita