Brandy,

Thanks so much for your advice and help, I welcomed all your posts! I guess the crux of the problem is how do I accept the unacceptable?!

I will try all your tips and see how I get on. Maybe one day I’ll feel more inspirational and hopeful about the future. Right now, it eludes me. And when I’m stuck in a moment I can’t get out of, I feel I’m wasting the gift of life which has been given to me. It’s like a waste of a life on someone like me, who can’t embrace it fully.

Perhaps one day this will change. I can’t say at this point. Thanks again!