Hi Anita,

Glad you will have power for Christmas…I believe this will be my most dreaded Christmas ever.  I have not spoken to anyone in days & feel so empty.  I really don’t want to be around anyone at the moment especially feeling as I do.

The house my ex purchased is in his name & it just doesn’t make sense.  I saw his credit & 2 bankruptcies.  It wouldn’t bother me so bad except he always said he couldn’t get a loan  & as I mentioned earlier I had to co-sign for his car.   Am I being punished for something?  It seems like he met her and gave her everything in 3 mos. that I always wanted the two of us to have.  I am so hurt and disgusted over the past 8 months and how everything has unfolded for the two of them  I am letting it destroy me, maybe I am jealous of what they have.  I feel he used me to get back on his feet, got me in a financial bind and now he has a new home married with the girl he has known for less than a year.  I hate to admit it but I am stewing over the situation.  It just doesn’t make sense and I know it never will.  I am just hurt that he never would be kind enough to me to talk and let me say what I needed to say to him before he began life with someone new. 

I still can’t believe the man I Loved once would treat me as he did. Walk away and never look back.  It seems like a nightmare!!

I guess I will eventually be able to put this behind me if it doesn’t kill me first.  I am beginning to feel like a hermit…I just don’t want anyone to see me like this, being so sad.

Bella~