Dear Anita,

That is wonderful and succinct advice. I agree wholeheartedly. I am impressed by your ability to map out complex concepts and put them into –  simply the truth.

After all, all of the progress that I have made in understanding what the truth is, and being able to progress in my life has come down to simple phrases hasn’t it? Oh so long ago it seems you said to me, get off the crazy train. You explained me that the only way I had a chance at a saying a normal life is to not have my mother in it. Oh how complex it all seemed back then, and Surely it is, entries and entries, stories upon stories. But what did it all come down to? That I should not have contact with my mother. Simply this. Time and again no matter what the story. It came back to this. Because – after all this is the truth, I am living the truth every day. Just like above, I must leave my sister alone, I am not helping her.  The help she needs cannot possibly come from me.

It makes sense to me why I would get so distraught when I was “helping” her. Because Did not see the light: I was not really helping her at all.  so that got me even more frustrated given that I was putting out immense effort. But this is not the way. This is not the path. Not for myself. Not for her – not for anyone.

It makes perfect sense Anita, my job is to protect her from abuse, it is not to “help“ her.

I will let this sink and savor, I would like to write to you more later on today