Agnes1205,

You tried to kill yourself over this relationship.  She talked about killing herself.  That alone tells me that this is an unhealthy relationship.  I’m not sure how real this relationship is since it does not seem you two have actually me or been with each other in person much.

I agree with Anita on you needing therapy, not only to get over this relationship but to help yourself on knowing what a healthy relationship is.  If you tried killing yourself over a relationship, this is not healthy and that behavior has nothing to do with her.  It is not healthy to want to be with someone who is depressed, who lies, who talks about suicide, whom you have not even met (I assume that since you have not mentioned any face-to-face contact with her).

Mark