Dear  Agnes1205:

You are good enough. You question it, but I know the answer. I hope you will know it too. I already made up my mind  about this woman you refer to as your ex.  She  lied to you repeatedly and I am done with her as an option for you.  I understand that sometimes she was  nice to you, in great contrast to your yelling parents who are rude to you,  but her sometimes-niceness does not make up for her lying to you repeatedly.

You need a person who will be consistently honest and respectful to you. Not too much to ask for,  or  to expect, reads like, correct? Unfortunately this  combination is not that common.

So, regarding that person you refer to as your ex,   I am not open to consider you having a relationship with her. She  feels like hope for you, but there is no realistic hope  there, only more trouble.

What about someone else in your life… a different young woman?

anita