Kkasxo,

Happy New Year to you. I’m looking forward to hearing about your break with your family! Did you get headspace during that time?

Ive gotten myself into a pickle again. I’m not sleeping as my mind is constantly churning trying to figure things out, wondering how we could work. It’s like the past 3 months didn’t happen! I don’t want to be without him, but I feel I need to let go, for my own sake, because I can’t continue like this. I’m under the weather and the lack of sleep is not helping.

Im due to meet him within the next week again. I’m not sure he really wants to but he’s too polite to ever refuse. I think it will have to be the last time I see or speak to him. I can’t coax someone into a relationship with me, they have to want it.

I hope you really enjoyed the break and we’re able to switch off.