Mark certainly does have a way with words and gets straight to the point and I appreciate that.

Sometimes constantly analysing things just is a way of holding on. I have to make a decision. I just wish I was not so weak about it and could just suck it up and do it.

I still feel so sad. Thank you Michelle for your input. I often wonder will I one day have the benefit of hindsight and look back with a ‘Eureka’ feeling as to why this all happened. I guess I find it hard to work off faith, I like answers and evidence!!

Thanks so much for taking the time to give me advice on this though, it’s kind and supportive of you all.

I’m finally back in work today after being ill, so hopefully the constant ruminating will take a back seat now.