Dear Anita,

SCC – i like that.

I guess I never thought about it as that she never gave me permission early in life.  As I always felt I never gave myself permission.  Early in life I found myself pushing myself more than she pushed me.  But here’s the thing, theres the whole aspect of her trying to live vicariously through me.  Feeling that her life was so bad, and so her daughters should seek all and live the life she never could.

Then later in life, yes. She NEVER gave me the permission.  Nope, I had to fix all- most importantly her! My role in this universe was to fix her.  I was placed her to bring joy to her, and take away suffering.