Shelby,

Thank you, I hope once I am past it it will be almost like a new beginning, new glimmer of hope, fresh of breath air. Until then I will just have to take each day as it comes.

I’m sorry you’re feeling sad again. It is literally such a sh**ty journey isn’t it! The waves and up and downs are so exhausting. It is absolutely okay to not want to be with anyone else. That is absolutely normal and I wouldn’t push yourself in that direction. Take my ex for an example, first relationship, first heartbreak, he wasn’t sure how to deal with it, everyone was convincing him to ‘move on’ and that he will find love again and it’ll be fine eventually, he believed that seeing as we are over and there is no way back then the only way forward is to move on as per everyone’s advice, ended up ‘dating’ and look at him now? It lead him nowhere, he wasn’t ready, his heart wasn’t ready, it was a complete waste of time, if anything it amplified the fact that no other woman is me, oh & it ended up hurting me in the process! So don’t rush into that, it’s perfectly okay to not be ready. After all, he was your happy ever after for a long long time AND you still love him. I was just wondering, when you say you want to reach out but you are not ready, what do you mean? What are you not ready for?