Dear sadman11:

“I have everything that would make a man happy. A career and a beautiful and caring girlfriend. But I also have had dealt with lifelong depression”-

we keep re-living our childhood experiences because our brains were formed during and as a result of those early experiences.

For example: a young boy alone and lonely, desperately trying to get the attention of his mother but failing again and again, tries to get her attention by being funny, making jokes, trying to make her laugh, sometimes she laughs but too soon she forgets about her boy and resumes a busy life, career, dating, leaving him alone. The boy feels very sad alone, feels like he is a failure, not good enough to be loved by his mother.

He then grows up and because he was successful at times making his mother laugh, he becomes a comedian, a successful comedian, so much so that he becomes an international comedian and movie star, playing in comedies, admired by millions of people all  over the world, having houses and money and fame and opportunities, all the therapy one can buy and no less opportunity to be loved than anyone else, “everything that would make a man happy”, one would think.

Except that this famous man, getting the attention and admiration of millions, still feel sad and lonely because he didn’t and doesn’t have his mother’s attention. That boy doesn’t disappear over time, he is still there, experiencing the same thing.

Does this make sense to you?

anita