Dear Anita

Thank you for encouraging me and for liking my imagery. I am grateful to have your compassionate nature in my life. Thank you for helping me better understand myself and giving me courage to keep shining brighter than the doubts. I want to shine brighter and work on healing the broken pieces and be a candle in the darkness.

On this past Sunday, I was still quite happy with my recollection of Saturday’s events. And it was a great day, pretty much uneventful until 9pm when a customer came in. She had brown hair, wore a black coat was about 5 ft 7 and also had loose plain slacks and black shoes. Anyway, she wished me luck on my studying and encouraged me to be myself and said that I shouldn’t worry because I looked quite masculine and she even used the right pronouns (he/him) and gender so I was feeling pretty euphoric. She gave me a sense of confidence in myself.

Monday was mostly studying for Chemistry II and the exam wasn’t too bad. I also worked on an Art History assignment for a long time. I strained myself quite a lot on Monday with assignments without much breaks so I felt drained and cranky. So on Tuesday I decided to take breaks in between my classes so I wouldn’t feel overwhelmed and I felt my energy renewing itself. On Wednesday, I helped a person struggling with Pre-Calc at 2:30pm in the library and the math helped me with some physics concepts so it was great. Also I felt like I had a purpose in the world and was happy to help someone. Also one of my physics classmates offered to help me understand the course material and I like working with him. He has a great sense of humor and always knows how to make me laugh and feel less stressed. So on Thursday my History III professor brought bagels to the class and that was great. In Art History, I watched a movie on the building of the Parthenon in Athens, Greece and it was fascinating and a great way to destress. I also hung out with my friend from LGBTQ club in the library and we discussed popular LGBTQ books at 3pm which helped me relax before my Anatomy/Physiology II lecture class at 5pm-7:30pm on Thursdays. Also Thursday  when I went to  the gym (after US History class), I met two people who one had dark hair  and was wearing a blue sweater and sweatpants. The other was blonde haired with streaks of brown and wearing black athletic wear. Anyway, the one wearing blue was telling her friend how she enjoyed being at the gym early in the mornings because there is less people and it’s quieter and since she is a bit antisocial and doesn’t like people judging her, she likes having less people in the gym when she’s working out. I heard her and I smiled at her and told her that I can be the same way at times. She was quite happy to find someone who could connect. I told her and her friend to have a good workout and a good day.

It is snowing this Friday morning and I love snow so I am happy. The college campus opened at 9am today instead of 8am regular hours because of the snow so I got to sleep in.