There is also something else that I want to talk about, ( and it annoys because I feel like im rumating), but I think I should acknowledge the fact that I have been very insecure about my nose since freshmen year. Back then it was not that bad, because I would just notice a hump (which was probably cause by playing rugby)  through a certain angle in photos. But during sophomore year I think my insecurity grew bigger and would get paranoid when I was high. I was obsessed with it and could not see anything else but that. I think this came around the same time that what I feel like social anxiety. I became so obsessed with it I would put ice on it in the hopes of straightening it and would also massage it. As time went by I felt like the hump on my nose got bigger and I didnt think it was in my head, and that I somehow made it worst by trying to fix it. So now when I look in the mirror I feel like there is something wrong with it. During junior year I was insecure about it, but at the same time I knew girls thought I was pretty good looking, but this year I’m barely attracting any girls and feel like I became uglier. So I dont really think about it often but I dont like too much what I see in the mirror. And sometimes I would tell myself that it was my fault that it happened this way.

Its very annoying because adults tell me Im good looking, but at the same time I dont see that all when looking at myself in the mirror. Its not that Im being a perfectionist and pointing out the small details, but I really think that my nose ruins my face and I cant get used to it.

This is probably one of the things that affected me and made me lose some of my confidence.