Dear Anita,

An example for me, or perhaps a few:

• when I move things at work – utilizing my left side inside of right, as I have found that overuse of my right back and leg can cause muscle spasms.  To tune into my brain and use my left side often feels cumbersome, awkward – so it naturally feels like the “wrong side”
• picking up the phone, or not. As you know, in the past, if the phone rang, it felt innately and immediately necessary to pick it up  – no matter who or what.  Programmed from when attending to my mother was – drop everything and do, ALWAYS
  • so now, I will think about it when I see the person’s name on the phone ringing.  I will innately go to pick up, but then ask myself if that is the right decision in that moment.  It is almost – if observed from the outside or as a cartoon, a dance where a person leaps, pauses looks around, and leaps back.  Does not continue leaping forward.  As leaping forward is a natural pattern.  But taking one leap, pausing, contemplating, and then leaping backward – well that takes more effort, and this new “dance” does not feel of course as fluid and natural