I guess just to make sense of it all, but then I think about how it’s probably not worth it. Yes, the cheating happened when we were together. Yes and no. One time I told him that I felt like he was losing feelings and would leave, looking bothered and would not talk to me for days. Another time I told him he was being rude to me a lot and he purposely  ignored me to prove how rude he can be. So sometimes I felt like my feelings were too much for him. He would become manipulating by telling me something never happened, or he never said what he said, making me seem crazy as if everything I said, I made up to make him look bad, then he would say “I would never say that, I’m not that type of person”.