I want to say that I don’t act bad towards my bf when feeling like that. I have learned to be like this, I am proud of myself. Things are going better than ever between us, I am 100% content with him, how he behaves etc.

Another problem I have at work or wherever it requires to be creative, give ideas. My mind is blank. I can never be creative and give ideas… If I am asked at an interview “What would you change/ how would you improve….*anything*?”. I just don’t know.

I wish I would be smart, creative, free of social fear…