Hi Michelle,

No set plan as such. I have a friend who lives about one hour north of Sydney in a lovely place called Newcastle and she just had a baby so I’d definitely like to go there. Also would like to travel to Melbourne and NZ, so I need to get researching.

I’m feeling down the past few days because I’m missing him while he is away, although he has been texting me and sending photos regularly. My younger brother now knows about the reunion because he happened to spot my car on the motorway when we went away for our romantic weekend- what are the odds? Anyway, we spoke about it yesterday and he just laughed. He doesn’t judge, he does his own thing and lets people do their own thing. He admitted he’s often gone back to his exes before a couple of times, but just for a ‘once off’ weekend or something like that. He says I need to keep my options open and be looking elsewhere.

I guess I just feel sad that no-one has any hope whatsoever for myself and my ex and I guess that hurts because it makes me feel like I’m less than I am. That I’m silly or foolish and everyone else in the world is right and everyone is just waiting for the inevitable heartbreak again, therefore….now I’m frightened and just waiting for the breakdown too. It’s making me sad I suppose, the whole situation. I just want it to work out, I don’t want to be hurt again either though, but my life is just a mess right now. So I’ll stay focused on my course and my new baby godson and my job. I’ve had to cancel my therapy this week because I’ve had a number of bills and simply can’t afford it right now.

@Kkasxo……Hanging in there? x