Dear Robi1992:

Congratulations for applying to about 60 restaurants and bars, 18 language schools and 30 other jobs you found online!

* maybe you should follow up on these applications, call or visit locations asking about your application, if it was looked at, and what can you do now to get employed there. Show interest by showing up.

“There is a part of me who seems scared of having a job”- maybe that part sees to it that you don’t present yourself to potential employers in the most attractive ways, and that you don’t follow up on applications- be aware and present yourself to employers best you can, and follow up.

“It feels like I am cursed.. almost like no matter what happens I end up doing the same thing”- did you watch the movie Groundhog Day (1993), you may like it, it may give you ideas.. and maybe you will find in it what you are looking for:  “some kind of drive towards something” and the “motivation to pursue it”

anita