@Kkasxo,

I’m so sorry for your experience. It’s very very tough. I have had three people very close to me pass away after an illness and have seen them all take their last breath and it is so final and so frightening if you are not prepared for it.

I know it’s hard for you right now to see it as anything other than traumatic, but try and think of it this way…your poor family friend was very ill and suffering through that horrible illness and you did a very kind act by calling on her in her final hours to make her feel comforted by the company and then she gave up the struggle and is at peace now, not suffering and struggling with that awful illness anymore. She’s at peace now, as difficult as it is to let someone go, it is better that they no longer are so sick or in pain.

Well done Kammy, you did a kind kind thing and one day you will look back and know that and understand that the poor lady is not longer sick or suffering.

I’m sending you a big virtual hug (that your ex really should have given you). You deserve one. You will be okay and I hope you still look forward to living as much as life as you can before you have to one day in the far far future take your last breath, surrounded by loved ones.

Let me know if there is anything at all I can do to help. x