Dear Anita,

I feel calm this morning, and am proud of myself for cleaning my Saturday plans. I am allowing myself a day to just be. Hasn’t happened in a very long time here in NYC.

i read what you wrote and I am seeing this. That I rejected my soft feelings of sadness from early on. I don’t recall vividly the memory of being sad. But I of course became sad from time to time. I know that when this occurred (I know this as an adult) that if I was distressed then my mother would be distressed and she would blame me for hers.

I would like to continue the exercise some more if you would like to as well