Dear Anita,

I love and totally admire the way you can respond to a post from me, in the exact manner which makes sense to me.  In so many ways we speak a similar language – and that is so refreshing to me.  In a world where many people don’t, perhaps most, and it requires the need to explain yourself – in the context of you and I, it is appreciate that most of the time, we “just get it/each other.”

feels a microsecond of joy but you can’t stay there, can’t relax into it, because you have to attend to your mother and her agenda

your mother is there, still, demanding as always: my life/your life is about me

Absolutely, she is.  Like you said before, although not physically there, I still try to make her happy, I am still feeding the mother voice.

If you would like, shall we continue the exercise?