you know Anita, I don’t know if my dad is good or bad. sometimes I think he is good, but sometimes he is bad because he has a temper problem, and because he was bad to my mom.

you know, sometimes when my mom and dad get into a fight, my mom cries so much that she will run away with my sister and i. she says how she doesn’t have a job or money but she will find a way. that god will protect her and her daughters.  and that any other woman would have gotten a divorce a long time ago.  she says shes so strong that she lasted with a man like him, because he is so bad, and that he should be lucky that she stuck around.  she says that she is the most unlucky woman because she has a husband like him. that all he has is a good job, but no personality. that someone like him wouldnt even get married if it wasnt for arranged marriage..  she tells my sister and I how “women need some things from a man” and that he can’t even do that. i know that is grown up talk – but I know that is sad, and that my dad is not that good, and that my mom deserves better.

sometimes she starts talking about how if we had to, we could go to her brothers or someones house, and leave my dad.

but then everyone starts crying and is sad.