Dear Anita,

I hope you read my previous post, and would like you to comment on that first before proceeding and reading here. I am continuing to write as it is flowing well this morning.

So the last part of my post, it also goes along with the idea of that she only talked about fantasy. She glorified sexual encounters I need up. Did she actually talk about the physical act or explicit details, no. But she glorified the fact that some men can be so incredible, and amazing, and fulfill woman. And that is very important to fine. She would tell us that unfortunately she is so scarred and miserable because she did not have this in her life, so she hopes that my sister and I find that.

Now in my own life, I was never very promiscuous, quite focused on meeting good boys, and dating. I was never the type to sleep around, or be that sexually driven. But most importantly the entire concept of all of this was very scewed in my head.

It’s like the Cinderella example what if someone told you that love and marriage is exactly like Cinderella, and that is the only example you know. So when you actually meet someone and get married, you would be terribly disappointed, or confused, You think that something is wrong. With that person likely! “Look this isn’t right  this isn’t what is supposed to happen! This is nothing like Prince Charming and Cinderella!”

so this background is a lot of the reason of my abuse and attacking of my husband. Not being taught reality, and LOVE

being taught seeking and fantasy

– I’ll add more soon