Anita,

It’s been kind of a rough day.  Yesterday afternoon I found out that M. Was at a bar and bought a drink/shot for a tall blonde female at our office.  I don’t know any specifics but I feel sick to my stomach. I’m not sure when this all took place.  Supposedly she likes attention from men.

A few things bother me. 1. I don’t drink because of past alcohol abuse issues so I’ll never be able hang out for a drink with a man. 2. Men typically go after the same type of woman and this female I’ll call her “S” might be similar to me except for being younger. 3. I was improving until this.

I have my first counseling session May 1.  All the self help quotes and just get over him and move on make me want to scream.  I don’t believe anything happened with “S” but still what the heck?

Lindsey