Dear Josh:

“there’s so much before the age of about 16 that I just (don’t) remember… I can’t recall most of my childhood”- it was unpleasant then, your childhood, and so you have only two good memories: your parents sitting on the couch, you and your sister on the floor, all watching a movie and the four of you in bed on Sunday morning, playing.

“I think my soul has been yearning for the connection her and I had that night”- yearning for the connection you had so little of in your first 16 years.

You felt this connection, what I referred to earlier as a Together feeling, with this woman and then you were “dropped into the same exact place filled with loneliness”- same loneliness of your childhood, I figure.

I want to understand you better, therefore I ask: the five year relationship with your ex girlfriend, how was the connection with her, that feeling of Together?

And, I am wondering, if connection is so thrilling and loneliness so painful- how is it that you didn’t propose to her in so many years, do you know?

anita