Dear norit:

It is interesting, you wrote yesterday after moving away from your parents’ home: “I suddenly have a lot of free time and feel somewhat empty… I’m not at home and my brain isn’t thinking about what my family is doing.. I feel generally disinterested in everything right now… I feel like I have more free time and I’m not sure how to spend it”-

– you spend a lot of time “looking at screens to distract” yourself before and after your move, so you’ve been spending your time the same way, but it feels like you have more free time now. I think it is the noise that filled in your time and you got used to it, hearing your parents in the background, and not hearing them, the silence that is now your new experience, has a different feel to  it, an emptiness of something that is no longer there, the familiar noise.

But it was not a good kind of noise in their home, all those years, was it.. maybe at times it was a comforting kind of noise, maybe the familiarity itself was comforting?

anita