I haven’t even spoke to them. I don’t even know what to say. I am upset with them but couldn’t even possibly discuss this at this point. I am also terrified of them. I feel like this is what my family wanted. Me depressed and anxious so I come running back. It is so unfair. I was finally managing life Anita and now I feel I am losing my mind! I’m so damn scared right now!! I wish I had something to bring this down! I am so scared. I am deep breathing. Have a hot water bottle for my kidneys and positive self talk. This is all body right now. Nothing I can do!