My ‘Christian’ faith finally fell apart this afternoon. It was exacerbated by what happened yesterday. I am still involved with church, though I really want to leave if im honest. (I tried to leave before Easter but was given a rough time by my family for it.)

I have been doing the classic thing which many Christians do before they ultimately become complete atheists: I increased my devotional level to the max, going to weekday mass and saying the Rosary as well. Though it wasnt doing anything for me I tried to persevere……until yesterday when a so-called Christian made fun of the way I walk. (I have osteoporosis and curvature of the spine with a 26% risk of fracture). I stood open-mouthed in the church porch as he mimicked my gait, and I couldn’t understand why he was doing it. He was just being mean.

I have seen right through church like a pane of glass. It is all a sham. Some of the biggest arseholes I have come across in life have been connected with churches: mockers, scoffers, liars and paedophiles (two of the latter).

I’m officially faithless now.

Tannhauser