Dear Sandy:

“I feel so alone but I also have to act/ pretend to be supportive and loving.. I’m worn out.. I am overwhelmed with sadness and anger… there is something off about this…I feel like there is something wrong with me and it’s a pretty lousy feeling… I’m not comfortable or interested in talking with her. I don’t want to fight, I just want space… I just don’t feel like talking. The depression/ sadness I’ve felt in the last two days isn’t something anyone can understand”-

Let me know, if you want to, if I understand correctly: you are worn out of the same old- same old life situations and you don’t see a point pretending anything anymore. The way things have been is not working for you. There is a problem in your life and it needs to be solved, but living like before is not bringing you close to any solution.

Your depression is about giving up  on what used to give you hope, sharing your thoughts and feelings  with friends and receiving their (temporary) support. With no hope, the sadness and depression are deeper.

anita