Dear Cali Chica:

You were betrayed early on. Your mother used your love to hurt you, no wonder you are resistant to love. It brought you pain and incredible frustration as your loving efforts toward your mother failed again and again and again to make her love you as you are.

No wonder you are turned off to love.

I wonder if psychotherapy is right for you at this point, a competent professional able to make it safe for you, in the context of one to one, in his (or her) office, for you to move forward with this.

anita