Dear Cali Chica:

It is both, healing and meaningless distress: your brain is set in certain habitual dynamics which existed when you first posted here, the lashing out at your then fiancé, for one. That was a meaningless distress, not healing and it still is. But in addition to that meaningless distress you are also healing.

Recently I wrote to you that the intellectual part of the healing was easy, a walk in the park compared to the part of the healing that is required now: the ongoing practice of mindfulness, basically, every step of the way, every day.

I think you are alarmed at this point, worried that you are not doing well. This is why you are thinking about psych meds. You are overwhelmed, are you?

anita