Hi Javairia,

Thank you so much for your reply – it has touched me so deeply.  You have given me three things that you really like about yourself and then have attached some words which indicate that you don’t think you are doing or being good enough.  I used to do that, then someone told me that my inner critic was sitting on my shoulder and so I learned to flick him/her off.  I became “good enough” and learned to love myself.  I’ve even written a poem on the subject in the hopes that somewhere down the line it will help someone else.  You have empathy (understanding), you help where you can (care) and sometimes you need down time (lazy).

I love that you paint birds and flowers, that you see the beauty in nature and can recreate it.  I love that.

Your brother attempting to commit suicide is enough to disturb your balance and lead you to question everything.  Your friends may not realize what an impact this has had on you, they may not realize just how scared and helpless you felt.  Those around you can feel just as helpless towards you as you felt towards your brother.  I don’t know what circumstances caused your brother’s desperation but I sincerely hope that he is and will be able to come through his terrible dilemma.  Keep reassuring him that you love him and will be there for him if he ever needs to talk.

Keep pouring love into yourself, counting all your good qualities and show gratitude (a simple thank you) for the very many blessings you have in your life.

Peggy