Hi Aiko,

I’m sorry to read your sad story and that you are suffering so much from anxiety.  Stress leads to physical pain/illness.  Stress depletes the immune system and opens the way for illness to manifest within the body.  I don’t know if you can make an appointment with a stress counselor who can give you practical advice on how to deal with your anxiety rather than some-one who just talks to you.

You probably need to learn correct breathing techniques – perhaps it sounds too simple to say that anxiety can be reduced by learning to breathe properly but it is the truth.  Perhaps you could join a group that teaches Meditation to help you with this.

There are a vast array of products on the market that you can listen to which encourage relaxation and visualization techniques as well as helping with pain relief.  Perhaps you could locate one or two and see how you get on with them.

Perhaps you could join a Bereavement Group run by a counselor and express your fears in a safe environment.  Before you know it, someone will be giving you a hug.

I hope some of the above is of help to you.

Peggy