Hi G

I’m sorry to hear your struggling.

“The most painful state of being is remembering the future, particularly the one you’ll never have.” ― Søren Kierkegaard

Now that school is finished it appears your mourning the future you imagined before the illness. There is a time for all things and that includes mourning.

Your reaching out so now may be a time to move on from where you’re at.

Meditation and mindfulness may be helpful tools getting to a place where you can accept your situation. I might also seek out professional help in dealing with your depression.

I wish you well. Be kind to yourself

When in a similar emotional state, I found the book ‘Learning to Fall: The Blessings of an Imperfect Life’ by Philip Simmons. The book helped me put things in perspective.