Dear Gaia:

“not expressing my sexuality with someone else is slowly turning me into someone deviant”- I think that you mean that because you are not engaged sexually with another person, not expressing yourself sexually with another person- you overthink and over-imagine sex.

Similar to other areas- not really living, we think too much, being stuck in ongoing mental activity. And because of the sheer amount of mental activity (thinking, imagining), some of it sort of spreads into the weird, even deviant territory.  Do I understand correctly?

anita