What you said .. about children closing their eyes to what they don’t want to see… It reminds me of a friend of mine. She had her parents divorcing in her childhood and she once told me she remembers absolutely nothing about her childhood, it shocked me a bit cause I always have so much vivid memories of almost everything ever prior being 4, sometimes I even wonder if it’s normal. Have you done inner child work? What did you do exactly to connect to the inner child? I tried but sometimes it’s very difficult for me, like it’s difficult doing visual meditations in which you have to meet Spirit guides or higher self. At one point I recognize that it’s just my mind making stuff up and I recognize it’s not my soul connecting to me, I don’t know how to do it