Anita,

I hope you are feeling better today, you sound better.  So the good news is I did not break a rule yesterday and my anxiety went away in about 1-2 hours.  The bad news is I got anxiety yesterday.  I think my counselor meant well with how she interpreted K’s meaning of expectations.  While I do believe he meant don’t have expectations that we will become more than friends right now and don’t push for it, really I should have no expectations at all for anything with him.

And it is normal for him not to say bye when he leaves, he’s gone all day or days without speaking I know this.  I agree my counselor’s view on the expectations comment brought back feelings of rejection/separation from my mother.  However, at the time I just kind of went in a panic and felt like/still feel like saying don’t have expectations means in some ways don’t count on me.

This anxiety is really like the devil.  Just when you think you are getting better there is a set back.  K sent a text at about 9pm last night after he came home from happy hour.

Lindsey