Before I was 4 I remember mostly mundane moments of me playing or birthdays and stuff like that. What I told you about me being a homebody and starting drawing and maternal school mates I was 3/4. Well I also remember me being 4 and getting random existential questions like “who I am” but about drawing and reading a lot yeah, that was something other people around me made me notice for good or for bad, by excessively praising it or getting annoyed about it. I was very sensitive to criticism, I was told on repeat how smart or cultured I was for my age to the point it got boring or annoying for me, or either when someone told me that I always drawer on the same characters or made me feel how wrong it was that I sucked at real life plays or stuff I tried to stop myself a bit.