I talked to him last night finally.  I just wanted to hear him actually tell me its over.  He was very cold and angry towards me.  I’m just so confused at how it got to this point.  I don’t feel like I did anything to deserve this sort of treatment.  I always treated him well and tried to make him happy.  We practically lived together for the past year. I didn’t nag, pick fights or give him a hard time about anything. All I wanted to do was work towards a bright  future together and support each other in our dreams and ambitions. Enhance each others lives

You want to end our relationship? fine but why do you have to be so cruel about it.  He said he’d talk to me but this would be the last time he’d ever speak to me and then he’s going to block me on everything.  He told me he didn’t love me for a long time.  That he was seeing someone else and asked me to please respect that and move on myself.  Seeing someone else just 4 days later??! I asked him for how long has he been seeing someone else?  They were friends until just this past weekend when they went on their first ‘date’.  I asked him why he stayed with me for so long if he didn’t love me anymore? He didn’t know. I got angry and told him he was immature and that this ‘new relationship’ would likely suffer the same fate as ours.  He blew up and hit me where it hurt.  I’m a recovered alcoholic, 5 years sober.  Of course I slowly opened up to him about this over the course of our relationship.  I lost a lot of friends when I quit drinking.  I also stopped going out and socializing for quite a while. I had to isolate myself from triggers.  As a result I don’t really have many friends now. He told me I must be fuc*** up from my alcoholic past because who doesn’t have any friends? He told me I’m boring as hell and probably have ‘mental’ problems to have become an alcoholic in the first place and that I should get ‘help’.

I’m just in shock and devastated.  He broke my heart.  I’ve never had someone close to me flip on me in such a cruel way and so suddenly.