Dear Cali Chica;

My mother did the bad-luck thing too, very much so, going on and on about what bad luck she had- that was a  lot of her lots and lots of talking. She made a big deal about how those good-luck people are using her, taking away from her and I was very angry at those good luck people (people who visited, people in the neighborhood and such) because they had good luck, didn’t help her,  and they were using her. Problem is she insisted that those people with good luck take from her: take! take! she insisted and then, when alone with me she complained about how they use her. I told her: stop giving them things and she would say: no, it is not nice, what would they say, something like that. So I told her: I will tell them, I will tell them to stop taking from you! She said: I will kill you if you do that. Next those people were over and she gave them (expensive foods, gifts, whatnot) generously, insisted if they refused, they took, left, and she told me that they shouldn’t have taken, what users they are, daring to take from an unlucky woman who works so hard. Even though they are lucky and have so much, not even working for it.

As I type this, at this point, I am feeling, was feeling the rage a moment ago and forgot all about the content of your recent post, what it is there that you asked and I  wonder if what I wrote was even related to  what you asked. The rage, the hostility toward the lucky people who use her on one hand, and the anger at the mother for complaining to me so much, and not taking my offered help, going as far as threatening to kill me for trying to help her, help us.

I am under the influence of emotion right now. Will you let me know if I am off topic?

anita