Anita,

Ok so I think I know what is really behind this recent anxiety.  One, mediation is next week so I feel a bit stressed waiting for it.  Mostly-I’m realizing honestly to myself that K is not right for me the more I get to know him.  I’ve said similar things before to you but thought in my head if he wanted more I would say yes.  Now-I would prbably say no.   I think sometimes working right next to someone is almost like living with them to a less degree.

He is a good person but he is not…trying to better himself.  I see the age difference to an extent.  He likes drinking and watching football and playing the fantasy draft online…and just kind of staying as is.

It’s hard to explain.  It’s also hard to admit to myself because once my mind is focused on something, it can be hard to let that go.

Lindsey